I’m doing this wrong.

A couple weeks ago I re-joined Weight Watchers.  I’m almost certain that’s one of the most typed phrases on the internet.

When I joined the first time, there were all of these people saying “I’m back!” or “I just re-started!” or other things indicating that they’d strayed away and were returning.  I though I wouldn’t be one of those people.  Well, evidently I am.  I weigh more now than I ever have, and it’s not working for me.  I don’t feel like myself.

Want to know what’s weird?  It’s tough to be a “normal” size and think that you’re overweight.  People worry that you’re developing a disorder, or that you have a skewed sense of body image.  Well, no.  I just know that my BMI is higher than recommended, and that I felt better and had more energy 20 pounds ago.  Why do people think that just because you wear a size 8, you shouldn’t care about what you’re eating?  The scale is steadily climbing up, I’ve decided to correct it now instead of getting to whatever level of “fat” people require before society expects something to be done about it.  Get over it.

So, internet, you’re one of the first I’ve told about this venture.  My husband knows, and a couple of my close friends (who are also on the plan) and now you.  It’s easier that way, I’ve found.  I don’t have to explain myself.  But this is part of what I’m doing “wrong”.  Evidently it’s supposed to be “encouraging” if you tell your friends and family.  It’s supposed to help you stay motivated.  Whatever, I’m not going to tell them.

Another thing I’m doing wrong; I refuse to eat “diet” foods.  Actually, I refuse to change most of what I eat.  I’m not going to eat a frozen lunch from a box.  I’m not going to eat some “WW Approved!” snack.  I’m not going to buy fat-free cheese.  I’m not going to quit eating bread, or pasta.  I’m not going to quit going to restaurants.  I’m not going to give up Dr. Pepper.

So now you’re thinking “well that’s not going to work”, right?  Well, I think you’re wrong.  I think I can make better choices, and still eat the real foods that I love.  This has to be a life thing, not a “diet” thing.  I enjoy real food too much to eat “diet” crap forever, so I’m not going to do it now.

Don’t expect constant updates for this, I probably won’t talk about it much.  But, this is where I am today.


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2 responses to “I’m doing this wrong.

  1. I’m on your side here- I’m considered pretty tiny in my workplace and everyone gives me a hard time if they’re offering me sweets and candies and I turn them down because I watch what I eat. It is a life thing- and you have to do it the way it works for you- because if you sacrifice too much of what you truly want you’re going to crash and burn anyway. i watch what i eat when i can’t live the exercise life i should be living (usually due to time constraints) and i indulge when i am being significantly active enough not to worry about having an extra piece of cake here or a bag of chips there.

    It’s really all about weight management- bottom line rule of weight (loss/maintenance/gain) is that calories expended > calories consumed = weight loss, calories expended = calories consumed = weight maintenance, calories expended < calories consumed = weight gain. it's not rocket science until you try to put it into daily use.

  2. i meant to explain also that its about how you feel about where you’re at- you FELT BETTER at 30 lbs less what you are, i FELT BETTER at 15 lbs less what i am (and my bmi reflected that as well) – shouldn’t it be our choice to make that we aim for that goal? i wish all those “you’re crazy” and “but you’re small” people would leave us alone. it’s not a disorder because i want to live my life in a body that is functioning at it’s best rather than below par… i simply don’t want to settle for a “normal” body when i can have my own ideal body, which should factor in my own reflections on that ideal first and foremost-

    sorry for the dual rants, you’ve hit the nail on the head in your post.

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